Category: Pinks

My newfound smile is bittersweet….The night is starry and the sky is darkAnd all I can do is stare into the unknown….I’ve never been one to get trapped by fairytalesNor have I been one to get sucked into the notion of soul mates…..I have come to completely ignore the goosebumps that I get whenever I see youI swat at the butterflies that appear in my stomach whenever I hear your voiceI always ignore when you read my emotions and my voice like you’re reading from a book that you have written with your own handsI can’t get sucked inI won’t get sucked in I can feel the air like a ghost across my skinAnd if I close my eyes I can hear the insects and the animals that roam the…

I’m on a quest for purityFeeling like I might loose my sanityIt’s so hard for me not to be meI mean the real meMust I change who I amEverything I’ve ever knownThis transformation feels like it’s too much to take onWho I am and will always beDefines meI mean the real meSo, on my quest for purityI’ll try to maintain my sanityFor I wouldn’t be me If I didn’t carry onKaydee      

If I let myself remember the good times, I would surely crumbleIf I allow myself to remember how good you could make me feel, you would find me at your feetYou’re not good for me….I know that better than I know my own name…So why does it still hurt when we argue?Why do you still have this way of getting under my skin better than anyone else?What have you done to me?I was here when you weren’tI tried when you didn’tI sacrificed when you refusedAnd even now, all my efforts are spit back in my faceI used to be strong…..But you took my soulI used to be happy…….But you took my smileAnd now as I try to regain some semblance of a life, you refuse to let me have itI’ve…

I released the breath of relief that has been lying dormant in my lungs my entire lifeI am contentFinally….There are spare moments throughout my day where I don’t think about anythingDon’t worry about anythingAnd I don’t stress about anythingI can close my eyes and just existThis is my happiness..It’s taken long enough…I’m not as naïve, however, to discount the fact that this came to be the moment you entered my lifeIt’s not easy….We’re not easy….But loving you is as easy as breathingAnd everything else will take care of itselfI put a lot of stock in intuitionBut I am also careful to back up my instincts with realities gathered from direct experiencesWe are soul matesThrough and throughMy proof lies in our conversationsIn our quiet momentsIn the moments where we can completely…

I’m done with the gamesThe lies and the miscommunication and the secrets that I’m not toldWe were suppose to be differentWe were suppose to be above the normBut yet you still carry on behind my back as if I’m that naïveI know about the textsThe calls that end with “I Love You Too”,When I’m not the one on the receiving end of that callHow is it possible that you can still look at me with love in your eyes?….when you love someone elseHow is it you can still tell me I mean something to you?…..when I’m not the only one who doesMaybe I missed something?A big sign that was suppose to warn me about thisI felt something was wrongLike something was going on behind my backBut I believed your words…

His strong arms around meHis scent encompasses meHis hands caress meand his lips . . . His lips touch my cheek            taste my lips            tickle my neck            and explore my bodyI wish he was here beside me    holding me close    looking deep into my eyes    running his fingers through my hair    as I dig my fingers in his backPlayful rough housing that ends in sweet euphoria He releases my endorphins    enjoyably sweet like chocolate    all I can do is smileSmile and wish that this visit would never end . . .