Pain

Purgatory…..

Nothingness….

A gaping hole ofemptiness…

That is what youleft me with….

All of the years

All of thelaughs

And that’s all Ihave to show for it…

I was just youroption

While yourchoice took her time to be what you needed

I was yoursecond best

While you waitedfor your first to realize you were even alive

It’s funnythough, isn’t it?

And a littleironic

That I wasalways everything you wanted

But still notquite enough

The worstfeeling in the world is loving someone who loves someone else

I now know thatpain…

I feel itstabbing at my heart with every breath I take

I wake up cryingbefore I even open my eyes in the mornings

And it hasn’tstopped before I lay my head down to rest at night

You continued to take what I offered becauseit soothed your wounds

Yet you threw itback in my face the moment she said, “I’m ready for you”

I’ve been ready

I’ve beenwaiting

Yet again, Iwasn’t enough to satisfy you

I’m heartbroken

And I’mdevastated…

I mourn for thepotential of what “we” could’ve been

I mourn for whatwe were

And I mourn forwho you are now

Because withher, you’re never happy

And because youdecided to settle for less

You’ll get lessthan you deserve

And so I’llsettle for this pain

I’ll work my waythrough it

And I’ll learnmy lesson

Because the dayyou realize your mistake

Will be one dayafter I realized mine

You….