I was feeling some type of way last week & one of my Facebook friends posted this. I would be remiss if I didn’t share it with you lovelies here. Enjoy!
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She is the epitome of what perfection would be if it existed….
I dream about the curves of her body and the arch of her back
And wonder if I will ever be good enough to deserve to be in her presence
I have memorized the smoothness of her forehead to the slope of her nose
Every freckle on her face and the shape of her lips
I can detail the elongation of her neck and I fantasize about the taste of her collarbone….
….It’s the sweetest thing…
My fingertips tingle from the memory of what her breasts feel like in my hands and the smooth expanse of her stomach and I am lost
Lost in her….
My entire being is drawn to the space in-between her legs and the not-too-distant feeling of being “home” once again
The thickness of her thighs and the softness of her calves make my mouth water …
As I continue my descent I slow my movements just to make this experience last longer
..to make it last forever
And as I explore and memorize again and again
I will forever remain in awe that a creature such as this exists
She is everything
She is the only thing……
I crave the understanding of her expressions…..
I want to know the depths of her secrets
Her heartache and her pain
Her struggle and her strength
I need to know the mystery behind her smile
And the motivation behind her happiness
She is an enigma
She can cry a thousand tears and still wear a smile
She astounds me……
But I am drawn like a moth to a flame
And I would sooner be engulfed by that very flame then lose sight of her
Then lose the feel of her……
She is everything
Because she is the only thing……….
Our time is perfect together
Everything is “we”, “our”, future plans, meshed goals
And then reality steps in and I can’t help but to question if you’re really mine
We’re always in our own world
Never forgetting our boundaries but sometimes getting lost in ourselves
And I’m happy….
More happy than I can ever remember being
I’m content and I’m at peace
And then “it” happens again and I feel alone in a world that felt so full only seconds ago
We talk about love
We talk about life
We talk about downfalls and triumphs
And then I let my mind slip into a space where we can truly co-exist as equals
Where we are partners beyond partnership
And companions one breath away from being one person
And then “she” happens and I second guess your very apparent existence in my life
Are you really here?
Do you feel what I feel?
And am I worth the fight?
Because if not then save me from myself and let me go
Break my heart and watch from a distance while it heals
Destroy my soul and imagine what my worth will be once it’s restored
If your love is as real as you say it is
If you care as much as you say you do
Then be by my side when everything tells you not to
Trust in my heart when you can’t trust in yours
And love me, even when you find it difficult to love yourself
And believe me when I say that I am once in a lifetime
So cherish me while I allow you to
Or suffer with only seeing a glimpse of me in your dreams
contributed by Nique
Passed you by somewhere along the way……
I looked up…
And I realized I was taking this trip alone….
I waited for you
I held back for you
I stunted my growth for you…..
To encourage yours.
In the end though,
It’s my heart in pieces
The world’s a funny place
You do your part
You hold up your end of this unspoken agreement
Only to find yourself alone
Signing on the dotted line with no witnesses present
I hate empty words
…..Empty actions even more
Why allow me to fall for you
If you weren’t ready to catch me?
Why present those words
If you weren’t ready to be responsible for them?
Those four letters have become my enemy
My heart has become my burden
And you have become nothing
This is my indifference
This is my end of the road
My hands are wiped clean of fighting a losing battle
I’m fighting for something that I never had the right to call mine
Or that was never mine to begin with
Not even sure anymore
It’s just taken me this long to realize it
contributed by “An AberrantMuse”
Never wanted to let you go
I never wanted to make you stay
Just wanted you to find yourself
Hopefully you will one day
You are the only person I ever wanted to stay
But I needed you to feel that same way
I wanted you to be the one who always wanted me to stay
Clearly you did feel that way….
I just wanted you to be the one
And that’s all I ever really wanted to say.
contributed by Nique
My sorrow is overwhelming….
It overtakes me on the oddest of days
It surprises me
Catches me off guard when all I want is to just be
I don’t mind being unhappy at times
It’s ok to be a little melancholy
And I wish life would just let me have these moments
Keep the sorrow
I have substitutes
Keep the sadness
I have plenty of backups
Because of you I find myself having to savor the simplest of moments just to remind myself that life is worth living
I close my eyes tight five minutes before I wake up because I know once my eyes open, you’re not far away
I drive in silence on my way home because I know any minute now you will surely make your appearance
I want to live
I want to love
I want to make it possible to be loved
My entire being is screaming on the inside
Scratching at the seams
And my entire life is an out of body experience
I see the smiles of others and have to wonder what that feels like
And then I try to smile, and it just feels all wrong
I see happy couples and find myself daydreaming about what it would feel like to make someone laugh and look at me like that
I shouldn’t have to wonder
I should be done with daydreaming
And I should know what it means to really smile and it should be as easy as breathing…
When will it be my turn?
And when my turn comes around, would I even recognize it?
I’m a masochistic person by nature
It’ll probably pass me right on by….
…..story of my life